My How Things Change...

Yep...it's the truth.  Heraclitus CLEARLY knew what he was talking about around 500BC.  

Everything changes...   EVERYTHING. 

This is equally true for my life since the last post, only a month ago. 

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Nope, I haven't fallen off the Lenten wagon or anything...I'm still practicing mindfulness and being present in the company of others (though this IS easier with some than others...lol). 

The bigger change is my workout...and outlook on life. 

I quit Crossfit.  Yep.  I'm a quitter. 

Unfortunately, it started out as a requirement from the doc, since I was having so much trouble with my gallbladder and IBS.  (Yeah, TMI, I know...but hear me out.)

I realized that it was stressing me WAY out.  Instead of feeling like I was getting better and more able to do things, I was perseverating over the next morning's workout, freaking out about falling asleep in time to get up early and get my ass handed to me, and making myself sick in the process.  

Don't get me wrong.  I LOVED the box, the people, my coaches, and the feeling I got when I was done....AND MAYBE one day, I'll be able to go back to it.  But for now, the break has helped eliminate the psychological damages and reduce the pain my body was feeling. 

So, what does a girl do when she stops one workout and has time to figure out her destiny? 

SHE BUYS ROLLER SKATES, PADS, GUARDS, AND A HELMET AND JOINS 

ROLLER DERBY!!!

I can't lie.  This is something I've ALWAYS wanted to do.  I LOVED roller skating when I was a kid and the first time I saw a bout in Columbia, I was hooked.  I've talked and talked about trying out, but the time never seemed right.  

And this is where the next element of change is happening. 

I'm. Done. Waiting. 

Yep. 

I'm done waiting for the "right" time. I'm done waiting for things to fall into place.  I'm done waiting on this or that to be finished before I start living. 

You know why???

There IS NO right time.  Things ARE NOT GOING TO fall into place.  And LIFE IS HAPPENING while I am waiting for things to be finished. 

And you wanna know something?   This is the BEST I've felt about my little place in this big world in a LONG time. :)